Just So You Know

I’m an open person but like everybody and everything in life, I have my limits. I cope with heartache, loneliness and anger differently. It doesn’t help that there are people out there who judge me just because I deal with things differently. Maybe I need some time alone to put my thoughts together, maybe I need to get fresh air and have fun just so I can forget about all these negative thoughts even for just a few fleeting moments. Don’t you think about that?

Don’t you think that maybe I’M JUST NOT YOU?

So, think what you want. Tell yourself that I’m insensitive; make yourself believe that I don’t give a shit. I DON’T CARE. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and I am fully entitled to the way I handle things.

Just because I don’t openly say what I feel it doesn’t mean that I’m not capable of feeling anything. Like everybody in this world, I need a break. I need and want alone time. In fact, I crave for it and guess what? That doesn’t make me a bad person, it just makes me who I am.

It isn’t my problem if you don’t understand or that you aren’t willing to understand that because this is what I’M going through and this is how I face my emotions. It doesn’t mean that they aren’t there.

I DO CARE and that is what makes it hard because I care so much but I just don’t know how to show it. I shouldn’t bother myself with thoughtless people who have no lives and who make it a point to make me miserable just to satisfy their sick cravings.

I’m not going to change who I am and how I cope with hard times just for your satisfaction and for the fact that you think I actually will, makes me laugh at your stupidity.

So, go ahead, look at me badly, think of me as a bitch who doesn’t care, and say things behind my back because in the end, I’m just going to laugh at your face.