Just For Now

There are just some things you can't say.
The fear of vulnerability will take no prisoners.
It will haunt you until your last breath,
Taunt you until you hold the white flag.

You try hard to let this feeling go, let everything go.
But it's persistence is uncanny, almost torture for your feeble mind.
It's almost cruel, prodding you with it's finger.
Shaking your head, pulling your hair are wasted attempts.

There are times when you are afraid to open your eyes.
Sleep has become a great source of comfort,
A protector, a guardian, a friend.
It shields you from your own foolish ways.

Sleep has become too necessary, too needed.
And everything else are just unwanted activities.
You treasure those moments in which your mind shuts down.
The moments where you are soaring away from torturous thoughts.

You can't run away forever.
You know this will have to be addressed.
But in the meantime, just for now,
Just sleep.

It's the safer way out.
Just for now.